Guys, I really appreciate all the kind words reblogged and replied and sent via ask. But really, even though I kind of hit a bit of a low, I’m fine as I’ll ever be. But please, don’t try and “pep talk” anything. There is no bright side, no silver lining, no happy ending.

We’re only happy when we’re deluding ourselves that life isn’t painful. And that’s not really a good, nor a bad thing.

We all pick ourselves up to only hurt when we fall again. We all feel happiness because we’ve felt pain. And not to sound horribly cliche or dark or anything, but we’re all alive only until we die. Life is gray, and the final chapter is black.

You can’t have the good without the bad, or visa versa. I know this, it doesn’t need to be said. I just know life takes more than it gives.

I know it doesn’t seem like it, but I’m not trying to sound horribly depressing. I just know when to realize when to be realistic. Tomorrow I’ll be back to deluding myself that life is good and it’ll probably be years before I open my eyes instead of walking blindly along, and any of you will have to listen to me prattle on about this sort of thing.

Because we’re only happy when we’re deluding ourselves. I just wish we didn’t have to. It hurts even more when I remember that.