TENTA-BULGE PARTY

Got booted out of my history exam about 5 minutes into it thanks to Charter

I was on the phone with them, and got the internet connection back on JUST as my time to complete the exam ended

I’m in tears now because I emailed my professor but I think he’s a senile old man that only checks his emails once a week, and he never left an emergency contact number on the syllabus

I am going to wring someone’s neck if this professor makes me take a 0 on this exam because of a fucking bad internet connection

I HATE it when professors don’t post an emergency contact number. HATE. IT. I’m a nervous, crying wreck, watching the clock as it ticks down to 11pm while I can only hope my professor will see my email before the cutoff time to alter grades

OH MY GOD HE RE-OPENED UP THE EXAM FOR ME

phew

I still have knots in my stomach ugh

but oh man I’m so glad he’s letting me take it again I was about to have an aneurism

I’m just sitting here imagining Jake in his Page outfit

without pants

and wondering if the Page outfit was just unluckily bestowed with gray leggings

I mean who would even do that

no wait Hussie would

poor Tavros

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zilleniose replied to your post: you’re a POO FACE *btw this is anon

HEY MEAN ANON YOU STOP THAT RIGHT NOW THAT’S RUDE AS FUCK DON’T PICK ON AUBREY I WILL PUNCH YOU IN YOUR PROBABLY VERY ATTRACTIVE FACE

YEAH SRSLY ROOD!ANON. LOOK HERE TUMBLR FAMOUS BLOGGER ZILLENIOSE IS TOTES ON MY SIDE ABOUT THIS. TAKE THAT ANON UR SO WRONG

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Okay so I did a factory restore recently… and ever since I did, SAI doesn’t remember any of my settings except for my brushes!

That means none of my hotkeys are set, and none of my swatches - both of which I use VERY frequently.

Does anyone know what’s wrong? I tried uninstalling and reinstalling the program, but no luck. :c

EDIT: just to clarify I HAVE reset my swatches and hotkeys, but every time I close out of the program and start it up again, they’re gone again!

Can I just take a moment to say how the song Requited from Vol 9

just makes me tear up every time I hear it

I can just hear how tearfully happy Nepeta/Disciple would be upon hearing how Karkat/Signless loves her back

and it’s just so beautiful and heartfelt and pure

and I just wanna cry

/weeps into the sunset

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I love Taco Bell’s cheesy gordita crunch smothered in lava sauce I crave it every fucking day and last semester I had it pretty much 4 days a week

I am going to turn into a gordita with Baja Blast for blood

this was an adventure

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I sketched a bunch while my tablet was out of commission, so I decided to scan the doodles - and I went ahead and scanned my entire sketchbook, which is also my notebook for school haha

I’ll post them two images at a time over a few days so I don’t spam you all

I love drawing cute little random creatures

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doing a factory restore on my 5 year old laptop in a last ditch effort to save it. I am determined to make this thing last until I graduate.

wish me luck oh god it’s so stressful doing this I’m always terrified I forgot to save some important information 

no sooner than I finally stop crying from putting Flower down this morning and start feeling like I can try to do things again does my 5 year old laptop start dying

oh well it’s not like I needed to do commissions to pay for the bill the vet is still making me pay after killing my baby with blatant malpractice

might be gone for a while longer now I suppose

commissions are on hold too

sorry

Flower is probably going to have to be put down tomorrow

She’s bleeding internally now and she just lays there like she just doesn’t want to even try anymore, like she’s in too much pain to care she she’s just suffering and I can’t even tell if she wants to be held and be near me or if she just wants me to leave her alone and all I can think about is my time spent away from her could be spent with her instead. That I just want to hold her all day and tell her I’m there but I don’t even know if she wants that and I can’t just not get the things done I need to get done

I love her so much and I can just see her fading with each passing minute

I feel sick

I probably won’t be on tumblr for a while

I’m sorry I’ve been nothing but depressing and I’ve already bothered some followers into leaving and I feel bad because I never let something get me down this much

I’ll try and return to caring about things next week

thank you so much for all your kind thoughts, I love you all

Thank you all so much for reblogging and signal boosting. Word needs to get out about this drug (more than it already has) and this horrible vet clinic.

I promise this will be the last post for today about this, I don’t want to flood my followers’ dash, especially since most of you are probably following me just for art (and that’s perfectly fine don’t get me wrong).

I’m debating taking Flower back into that clinic. I told them what I found out, and they offered to see Flower again to make sure there are no other underlying causes of her stroke, which I’m not buying. They could just be trying to convince me it wasn’t their fault. I don’t want to stress Flower out with another car ride. I don’t even know what they could possibly do for her. I don’t trust them to give me a good medicine for her. I’d research it myself before I give it to my poor baby.

But they might be able to get her something that will help ease her pain. There might be a miracle in which they could reverse some of the stroke side-effects. It could even be a coincidence of ungodly proportions that she took the meds and started acting this way, and they can help her. I don’t know. I told the vet to call me on Monday before I bring her in to make sure there’s even anything they can do to benefit Flower, or if I’ll just stress her with another trip for them to look at her and say “yup she had a stroke”. Though one of the assistants/nurses I talked to was trying to tell me rats don’t get strokes. I had to tell her to go ask one of the vets so she can learn that they can have strokes, she did, and apologized, but I was still incredulous that a vet assistant wouldn’t know that at a place that supposedly knows all about treating rats.

Does anyone have any advice on what to do? I’m probably going to wait to chat with the vet (the same stupid one that gave her metacam in the first place) before bringing her in regardless. What do you think?

METACAM IS BY FAR THE MOST DANGEROUS DRUG OUT THERE FOR PAIN AND INFLAMMATION. Do not let your vet prescribe it to your small animals - there are much safer alternatives, and if your vet doesn’t know this, get out of there. If they aren’t aware of this, I doubt they’re aware of much of anything.

I forgot to mention the name of the drug, but I edited it into the first post.

Please spread the word about this horrible drug. Please signal boost or send this to people who have pets, any kind of pets, not just rats.

I wish there was a blacklist of vet clinics who use this drug. As a reminder, do not take your pets to the Tri-City Animal and Bird Clinic in the Ballwin, MO area. They prescribed my rat Flower with metacam (for a benign fatty tumor) and did not tell me it has a high risk of causing strokes, and that there are safer alternatives. My rat Flower is now unable to walk, eat, or drink properly and is in constant pain and discomfort from two strokes because of this horrible drug, and this horrible vet clinic.

I can’t remember ever crying out of pure rage and hate and stress along with so much regret and sadness I feel sick

I can’t stop and everything hurts

I want to fall asleep so I can dream that this vet gets what they deserve, so that they don’t hurt any more animals, and that Flower is cured and happy

but I can’t stop crying knowing my poor baby is downstairs in constant pain and discomfort

that this wouldn’t have happened had I not taken her to that horrible place

this is partially my fault

if I just hadn’t have taken her

I’m sorry

I’m so sorry Flower

I love you so much and this is what I have to show for it

im so sorry there are people like that in this world

im so sorry

SPREAD THE WORD. Tri-City animal and bird clinic in the Ballwin, MO area is a horrible place and you should not take your animals there if you care about their lives.

Remember when I was giggling over Flower being a little drugged up a few days ago?

The pain meds we gave her was prescribed by an exotic vet who claimed to be an expert with rats. This medicine has been pulled from the human market due to the high risk of heart attack and stroke. Every site I’ve been to, including many veterinary sites, forums, and the FDA government site, say this, and say it’s a great risk on many animals to give it to them. In the case of rodents and other VERY small animals, you are not supposed to give it to them at all.

Flower has had two strokes since last night, when we gave her the first dose.

She can barely walk, eat, or drink. She’s constantly bruxing, which indicates extreme discomfort and/or fear. She’s in pain. I don’t know how much longer she’s going to last.

These people wanted to make a few quick bucks at the expense of this sweet animal’s life. And I can’t even sue them for malpractice. I can’t get compensation for this selfishness and stupidity.

Flower was so full of life just a few days ago. She has a little fatty tumor on her side, but she was happy. She was running in her wheel, eating a bunch of treats, giving us kisses and bruxing happily when we scratched that perfect spot on her neck she loves.

Now to see her like this, all because of these godawful, horrible people.

I can’t fix her

I can’t even help her feel better

I don’t even know if she’s going to die from this

I want to scream and cry and make these horrible people feel the sort of pain Flower and I are both feeling, and they even still refuse to acknowledge this medicine shouldn’t have been given to Flower. Which means they’ll continue to prescribe it to poor unsuspecting families with small animals.

The drug in question is called METACAM. There are some cases in which rats do fine on it, but it is by far the most dangerous drug out there for pain and inflammation, and any intelligent vet will NOT PRESCRIBE IT.

DO NOT LET ANYONE GIVE YOUR SMALL ANIMALS METACAM. THERE ARE MUCH SAFER ALTERNATIVES.

SPREAD THE WORD. Tri-City animal and bird clinic in the Ballwin, MO area is a horrible place and you should not take your animals there if you care about their lives. They robbed my baby Flower of her happy life out of greed, neglect, and lack of training.

What would Dipper and Mabel’s god tier titles be?

I want to draw this

I’m leaning towards either Seer or Page for Dipper, maybe of Light, or Hope? Maybe Blood?

Mabel I’m thinking a Witch or Rogue. Evan thought it’d be funny if she was of Doom. I was thinking that or maybe Heart or Life?

Of course some of these titles I’m considering their roles in canon (which may not be their only function), and some I’m considering fanon roles.

Also, Mabel’s strife specibus would be grapplinghookkind.

Dipper’s would be tomekind.

yessss

Gravity Falls is the best cartoon

I will be drawing this once I decide on titles. What do you guys think?

Am I a bad person for finding Flower extra amusing while she’s drugged up? She just got her first dose of pain meds tonight (24 hour dose) because she’s got… a multitude of problems that can’t really be treated, and all we can do is pamper her till her time comes. Which I don’t even know when that could be, because she’s already a 4 1/2 year old rat with bright eyes, healthy eating habits, and still runs on the wheel. She’s a super rat.

She’s always full of energy when she comes out to play, so my mom and I got her out and she got her pain meds and you could tell exactly when those meds hit her cause she got soooooo wobbly. But she also got like, more excited. Like she just wants to run around EVERYWHERE AND DO EVERYTHING AND WOW WHAT IS THAT MOM PICK ME UP PET ME OK IM GONNA RUN OVER HERE NOW

and the cutest part that I need to get a video of soon

is that you start scratching her back and her limbs just kinda

spread out

and she goes all pancake and her eyes close like she is just in utter heaven and is actually melting

and you stop and she looks up and starts bruxing and flops on one side to get us to scratch her more and she grabs our fingers and just gives us so many kisses like THANK YOU FOR THE DRUGS I FEEL SO MUCH BETTER

she’s also like REALLY confident, we had to remove a few tall things cause she almost fell off some stuff cause she was just like HEY HEY THIS IS AWESOME LOOK WHOOOOAAAA WHOOPS

my precious little drugged bb

Flower is just the cutest little ratty ever

Being opinionated is often a fun, but meaningless endeavor. 

now everyone shut up there are people being wrong on the internet

I’ve seen a few of these popping up, and I’ve gotten a few messages mostly concerning the recent screenshots I did.

I would like to reiterate (this is on the profile of my blog) - that I do not mind anyone referencing, tracing, altering, or doing anything to my art!

As long as it’s non-commercial use (IE no one is selling anything derived from my work), I am totally fine with anyone playing with my art. I draw for fun, so it’s actually sort of cool to me to see people having fun with it too!

If my work is altered or traced, I would really appreciate a linked credit to my blog, and I may approach you and ask if you could do that if you haven’t; say you post a banner on tumblr using my art, I would probably send you an ask politely to see if I could get some credit (but I’m not going to hound you or anything). If my art is referenced, credit is appreciated, but it’s not necessary!

I really appreciate those who contacted me, because it means you care! But no one needs to worry, I’m very lax on what people can do with my art. Still, if you’re not sure that I might not be okay with something you found, you can always send me an ask just to be sure - I’ll always appreciate the though even if it’s nothing to worry about. But remember that I don’t always answer anon asks (at least not right away)!

It was totally rad!

Everyone met up and had a blast (We had over 50 people attend!), donated a lot of goods for the food pantry (over 100 items!), and just had a super awesome time you don’t even know

I know sometimes Homestuck meetups have a bad reputation, but our group was just perfect. Everyone was well behaved, there were no problems whatsoever, and Kay organized everything perfectly. He got us to settle down, get into groups, and eat at different intervals so we didn’t break the small cafeteria eating all at once haha

Kay, her fiance Weston, and Aubrey came over to my house afterwards and we had a SLEEPOVER~ We swam in the pool after dark, cooked a bunch of yummy food, played silly games, and had an awesome time I’m just sitting here rolling around in all the TOTAL EPIC AWESOMENESS even though everyone went home now

So anyway! Anyone who went to Can Town yesterday, let me know so I can follow you! Also I told this to someone during the meetup, that I ALWAYS answer asks if they’re not anon, so if you send me an ask and I don’t reply in a few days, that probably means tumblr ate it and you can totally send me another one and I won’t think you’re a creepy stalker or something :v

DO YOU LIVE IN THE ST. LOUIS AREA? Check out Can Town St. Louis! We do meetups every month or two at a fun place around the area, and do a donation drive for local food pantries (and if the items include cans, we usually make a real can town!).